Am i live for love?

I asked my fren, who am i? (in love)
He said, im one who doin things follow my heart's flow. Wil do watever tat pops out on my mind.
I asked him, am i doing wrong all the time?
He answered without taking more than 1 sec, and his answer is im wrong.
I was having insomnia last night, the reason, is quite simple, im a materialistic person, am i?
i questioned myself for a long time.
Why would i went back to my past memories?
Why?
I browsed ur facebook for hours last night, u and ur bf. How blissful. Isn't the life im hungering for? Thn why i chose to quit? I put myself on risk.

I questioned myself, wat i live for? Why im stil alive? What is the purpose? For wat Im doing all these?

After all, results turned out and I get know, all the people in this world, are egoism. Im juz self fish. Im doin all these for myself. Im cheering myself. Im doing all for my sake, no matter how it hurts, no matter how much its cost. Most of the phrases here I start with an "I". U can see how ego am i.

Sometime, I think too much. I think deeper than a lot of people. I got my own mindset, and I set it to be different. I set it in a weird way.

My fren said, don lock myself up in the past memories, I should try something new. But, isn't weird to leave the past just like that?

(imcomplete... need a GOD damn counselor)

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OMG.. Haix.. Duno what's going again.. If a person were to ask me, "hey!,Rick, what's up?". Thn most probably I'll answer, "Yeoh, she is up again..? huh!? Wat a shame for me to text u rubbish after I was drunk..

Scare of being a rubbish in ur heart.. U hav misunderstanding.... This new year hav leaved me wif too much of misunderstanding... U know wat... All I hav been doing, mayb should says mostly, are all taking u as priority...

I wan u to stay happy... I tried all I can, I did put in my effort... I persuade all the person surrounding me who can get near to u, to take care of u, to bring me more information bout u...

Haha... I even go and get close to another girl... In order to see whether u wil feel a little, juz a little of jealous, a little which can lead me happiness for few days... And even u won't feel wat I intend to let u feel, I could Tel myself tat I should not keep it goin lik tis.. But who knows, I turned up to be a bad guy... Why... Mayb it's juz a little words which came out from mouth which u never care bout it, or accidentally spoke it out... But the words are hurting me... So badly.. I cried, and once again, I was drunk... I never touch her... I juz nit girl, somehow... But none of them can really touch my heart.. Not even a small part of my heart...

wat can I do? i want to get near to u, as close as i can... Wan to get knows bout u, as much as i can... Wan to hug u so freaking bad... Wan to cry on u... I wan everything of mine is related to u... U knew it, u never give me chance... U insist not to go out alone wif me.. U rejected me, quite a numbers of time... I know, i understand... I'm not the one u are finding, thn pls, find one... Anyone can be better than me cos I'm trashhhh...

Wat the f"uc I'm doin.. Pretended to be the saint of love? never give up? I know these all are not existing nowadays...

I hate Christmas, I hate the new year... Cos u din wish me... The big days without ur wish are not big days anymore... And, cny is sucks....

Pls forgive me ~

I did a lots of mistake in my life. I made a lots of people disappointed wif me. But, i'm not really meant to do so. I tink these all were my retribution for wat i did. I hav hurt a lots girl, made a lots girls cried for me. I gave up the chances to hav a very good girl fren for plenty of time, juz for one stupid reason. One never happen reason. My frens were scolded me, for gave up one girl, who was treated me with all the truly hearts, that i could never found her back in my life.

But after all, i'm glad, bcos all of them are now living blissfully and happily. For those who are stil not, so sorry, and there are stil a lot of good guys everywhere. Pls, don stick wif me, a failure.

四面楚歌...
四面受敌...
人心险恶...
搞不懂未来了... 完全失去了方向...

果真验证了一句话: 患难见真情...
谁能够教教我, 我该如何是好???

想对你说 !

Did u ever know, Im never regret for knowing u as my fren. In contrast, Im glad for tis. U are so special for me. Although we are destined to be a pair of frens until the end of my life, but Im oways wif a little hope in deep of my heart. Im glad~

The reason for why Im so impress wif u??? DOnooo~ Maybe u are to beauty for me.. Too cute for me... No nono... Not tis... Maybe bcos u are the one i can never have? No, Im not such ego person... The reason is undetectable =,=

But, at least, u are my best ever reason not to attend to college which whn i think of u, i will start to tink why should i study whereas u are not by my side. No reason!!! Im sad, Yea Im... hahax...

Anyway i hav to admit, u hav inspired me, push me to seek for improvement... Did u ever know, I brought the car bcos of u !!! wow... haha... yea, I admit it...

LoL, zzz... wondering =,= why would u never give urself a chance??? Or in other words, giv me a chance... Juz a simple chance for u to know me much more than u ever know... but u dy get know of me long long time ago~ zzz... or Im not the one u are finding... I not in ur list? Wonder~

Huh? Im getting crazy from day to day... Hope la can forget tis "bullshit" ASAP, not to bring troubles to others... So sorry for L u... sry la sry la... don angry, worry, scare yup~ Im not the insane =,=

琴键按下了, 旋律奏起了; 感情放下了, 空虚响起了.......

我, 又开始想你了.... 想你的好.... 想你的笑.... 想你,想你,想到睡着了....

我们, 好像越来越远了.... 陌生了, 你身边的, 我都不认识了 ....

话题没了, 联络也少了.... 怎么了? 我想做的, 都无能为力了 ....

很想要找你, 拿起电话, 勇气变少了 ....

很想关心你, 毕竟很久, 没有消息了 ....

我说, 再多一阵子, 我可能会有机会 .... 我只想要对你好 .......

你说, 没有可能了, 我们不会在一起 .... 你只想要一个人 .......

不要嫌我烦 .... 我真的很烦 ....

我可以无所谓 .... 寂寞却一直掉眼泪 ....